I am PREGNANT!

I had an appointment with my dentist for my (semi) regular oral propilaxis and at the same time had a consultation about having braces, yet again.

My teeth “formation” has been degrading slowly that I am now having a hard time chewing and my bite is also not that sturdy anymore. My smile looks irregular as well.

Anyway, so I went to the dentist and he was checking out my teeth for braces. I was kind of hoping that my upper teeth would suffice with just retainers and my lower teeth will be the only ones needing the actual braces. After a few more minutes of analyzing, he finally said the verdict:

“Ma’am, I am afraid we cannot put braces on you yet because you are pregnant.”

What?!? I was so shocked at this point… I mean…Darn! I can’t have my braces?!?!
Hmm, wait… I think I am missing something important…

OH! SHOOT! I AM PREGNANT?!?!?

So that’s why my hips have been growing extra large…
So that’s why I have been eating way too much than normal…
So that’s why I love sleeping…

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My cellphone alarm then rang. It’s 6:00 AM, time to take a bath and go to work.

Dingding

K: Thanks for giving me that innocent look. It pours away all my stresses just looking into your eyes.

P: Thanks for the girl power. Thanks for the same wavelength. We connect in so many ways.

K: Thanks for saying “I am loving life!”

F: You can always say “I told you so” but you never did. You remained supportive of my happiness. And you always give me realistic things to focus on.

M: Thanks for always lending an ear. And for always reminding me to let God handle my life.

B: Thanks for telling me that “Yes, I was a jerk. I will never stop loving her. But the relationship has to.”

L: Thanks for always reminding me that God loves me. And for always giving me optimistic points of view.

R: Thanks, you’ve been there from the start. You never get tired of me. Heart to heart.

E: You kept your distance, but I still felt your good intentions for me. Thank you.

M: Thank you for the nights I could not sleep. Thanks for letting me hug you. For the words I know are true.

A: Thanks for making me feel that I am not alone in what I am going through.

R: Thanks for being a real fun but deep person. You give me insights in life that I could never think of by myself.

J: Thanks for letting me help you. It makes me feel stronger in a way.

J: Thanks for being my alter ego. You are the most realistic person, and I am lucky you are in my life.

J: Thank you for making me believe in a non-mediocre life. I have nothing but good intentions for you.

G: You are the best. You never left me the whole time.

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I have always been strong. BUT the strongest thing I have ever made was to admit my weakness.

All Through My Life, All Through My Days

One day in high school, an ordinary day; I, together with my choir mates, was in the music room getting ready for practice; we were waiting for our choir conductress.
Then she came in the room, she wasn’t in her usual joyful aura, she looked like she just cried actually.

We then started to go to our usual formation, sopranos, altos, tenors, bases together. She was starting to move her hand in the usual gesture of conducting the choir, when she suddenly stopped and said:

“Let us sing Lead me Lord.”

She started to cry now.

She then told us, with such difficulty, that our friend, a previous choir member who is already in college, someone who we knew was the class clown and a good leader, a very dear student of her…
… just committed suicide.

We then started to sing. We usually sing this song during opening prayers for school events, or for a Mayor’s birthday, or for a City Hall gathering, etc etc.

We were not in our glamorous costume, we were not in a special place, but we were singing the song an extra special way. We were singing it for a lost soul.

While we were singing, she continued to weep and softly, she told us, that whenever we feel lost, lonely, alone, burdened… remember this special song.

Remember to always allow God to lead the way.

http://www.tristancafe.com/music/flash/leadmelord.html

Lead me Lord, lead me by the hand
And make me face the rising sun
Comfort me through all the pain
That life may bring
There's no other hope
That I can lean upon
Lead me Lord
Lead me all my life
Walk by me, walk by me across
The lonely road that I may face
Take my arms and let your hadn
Show me the way
Show the way to live inside your heart
All my days, all my life

Refrain:
You are my light
You're the lamb upon my feet
All the time my Lord
I need You there
You are my light
I (just) cannot live alone
Let me stay
By Your guiding love
All through my life
Lead me Lord

Lead me Lord
Even though at times
I'd rather go alone my way
Help me take the right direction
Take Your road
Lead me Lord
And never leave my side
All my days
All my life

You are my light
You're the lamp upon my feet
All the time my Lord
I need You there
You are my light
I (just) cannot live alone
Let me stay
By Your guiding love
All through my life
All through my days
Lead me, O Lord
Lead me Lord

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On my way home tonight, my iPod was just playing this song over and over again, for around 2 straight hours. I cried the first 5 times I listened to it. Not long after that, I felt the difference – I didn’t feel lost anymore.

I want to sing again.

Soundtrack

I am going through the roughest time. I am going to spare everyone the details, but to give you a glimpse, let me show you the soundtrack of the season:

1. Backstreet Boys: As Long As You Love Me (Oh yes! Backstreet boys!)
2. Rihanna: We Ride
3. Kelly Clarkson: Walkaway
4. PCD: How Many Times, How Many Lies
5. Jojo: Too Little, Too Late
6. Howie Day: Collide
7. Justin Timberlake: What Goes Around (Comes Around)
8. Beyonce and Shakira: Beautiful Liar
9. Macy Gray: Still
10. Usher: Burn
11. Nelly Furtado: All Good Things
12. Barry Manilow: Somewhere Down the Road (I know, it’s too cheesy and old and it doesn’t even fit the genre, but what can I do? It keeps on humming in my head.)

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No regrets. Just because you threw up while you were in the roller coaster doesn’t mean the ride sucked right?